I want to commit suicide?

( If your not going to read this, then please don't answer to the question. I need someone who's willing to hear me out. & actually help me. Not someone who just says " You should never think about suicide. Because you need to hear my story to see what I'm going through. )All my life, I've been abused by my parents. I'm 13 now, and still get abused. They would hit me, they would talk angrily at me, they would do all sorts of things. I just don't know if I could put up with this anymore. Once, I even called the police and then I just couldn't do it. When the police answered, all I could say was " Don't your parents get arrested if they child abuse you?" and then they said "Yes, are you getting child abused or anyone you know getting it?" and then I said " No, I just wanted to know." So, I just couldn't get them arrested. Sometimes they would just say things like " All we want is for you to have a good future" and just keep on sweet talking but I know that's all a lie. When the old man ( my dad) gets angry or when he's hitting me he just says things like " You think your good enough? You're a lazy, shitty girl. One day I'll kill you. You see other people, they help around the house as much as they can, and you do nothing to help out. We raise you everyday and the more you grow the more we regret it." They cuss at me at the same time. They also say things like "I'll throw this bowl at you, your not my daughter, I found you in the trash can, your stupid, you can't do anything, when I was you I had to sell things, when I was you I had to study all day everyday, when I was you I did this and that. " But of course they had to, when they were young it was a time of war ( Vietnam War ) . My grandma told me that no parent should talk so much about their past and to just move on, but my parents use their past to compare me and them. && when my dad talks angrily, it scares me to death. He just has this scary side of him and when he even threatens me, I cry. && then he saids " WHY THE **** ARE YOU CRYING? I DIDN'T EVEN HIT YOU OR ANYTHING? SHUT UP OR I'LL THROW THIS BOWL AT YOU!, and it goes on. It just makes me cry even more. They do that to me on all sorts of things such as if I eat slow. I ate slow since I was a kid, but my dad keeps on giving me these huge bowls and making me eat all of it and threatens me when I eat. I always thought that he should just give me a little bowl since I don't eat a lot, but he still does give me a huge bowl. Or when I don't study on vacations for a couple of days he starts saying " YOU SEE OTHER PEOPLE THEY STUDY ALL THE TIME ! I ALWAYS HAVE TO TELL YOU TO ! YOU SHOULD GET THAT MOTHER ******* BOOK AND READ AND DO MATH OR SOMETHING OR I'LL BURN ALL YOUR TEXT BOOKS! " But he saids things more violently and even does violent things while saying it. Those are only the simple ones but he does more violent ones. He hits me like once every 2-3 weeks ( But not like a or a punch more like pounding me, slapping me, doing all sorts of stuff, getting a broom and hitting me with it, ll sorts of stuff) He threatens me more and more and every time my parents yell at me all I can think about is.. I should do it.. I really want to do it.. I can't put up with this anymore.. I can't wait for 5-6 more years till I can move out of the house... I can't put up with this anymore.. I want to die... I don't care about my life anymore..I think stuff like that and when I say this to my mom " I wish I'd just die, it'd be better for you two" she just replies " We raised you that much.. I don't see anything your father's doing is wrong. Everything your father is doing is right. He's the right one. Your the one's who's wrong. " Whenever the old man hits me.. my mom just stands there and watches and she does nothing in order to stop him. She never even tries. She never even says " You should never think about dying. No one deserves to die." She just says things to support him. I just can't take this anymore... I just can't live on with this anymore..I know there will be people who will also be affected from my death. I know that very well. But if I continue to live, I'll just be hit and yelled at, and threatened even more. I just can't stand it anymore. Please tell me what I should do? Whenever I try talking to them about this matter, they just change the subject or say we're the ones who raised you, so you should just shut up , or other things like that. Please give me suggestions. Tell me what I should do. I can't put up with this anymore. And if I should commit suicide, what should I do along with it? Should I write a letter to tell everyone that I killed myself and no one else did it? Should I write something that says I killed myself because I can'